God’s love



SOF_Jeremiah-31-3Previously, I have written a blog post, In the name of Love; an article about how you can portray God’s love to other people in your everyday life. This post however, is about God’s unconditional love; a love full of patience, kindness, forgiveness and every other beautiful fruit you can think about.

In all honesty, it is always so assuring to know that someone is there to love you. Unfortunately, you often forget that God loves you. There are times when you think you are lonely, unloved or even unwanted. If you have felt that, then let me put a smile back on your face. Whatever that feeling is, it’s earthly, therefore, temporary. There is someone who loves you despite who you are or what you did. When you sin, he will hold on to you tighter and love you even more. He will shower you with abundant blessings even though you know you don’t deserve it. When you go to him, he will never cast you out. This kind of love sounds humanly impossible and that is why I told you to cheer up because this love isn’t child’s play. When God promises to love you, he does it even though you fail to acknowledge it everyday.

What’s even better? There is nothing, and I emphasize nothing in this world, the heavens above or the world below that can ever steal his love from you. Don’t believe me? Well, he said it himself.

For I am certain that nothing can separate us from his love: neither death nor life, neither angels nor other heavenly rulers or powers, neither the present nor the future, neither the world above nor the world below- there is nothing in all creation that will ever be able to separate us from the love of God which is ours through Christ Jesus our Lord

 – Romans 8: 38,39

Write this on your walls; print this out or even save this as your wallpaper. Do whatever it takes to remind you of this promise that God has given us. If you realise your father’s love then I’m telling you my friends, there is nothing to fear, nothing to worry about and there is nothing ever created to make you feel unloved!

May God bless you all!



The Peace seeker

He was here just a few minutes ago, where did he go now? I need to find him before he disappears from my home, forever.

“Andrew, when I talk to you, you look at my face. Is that clear?”

“Mom, I was listening, alright? Besides, you give me this lecture everyday, so I know it off by heart. Thank you for your time.”

“Andrew…rew…” Her fading sound waves tailed me as I swiftly ran into the resounding silence.

I was welcomed into the teenage world by the same routine over and over again; she doesn’t listen to me and vise versa. I liberate and the last stage in this drama- she bangs hard on the piece of wood that divides our two distinct worlds.

“Andrew? Open the door, we need to talk”!

” I need some time to myself”.

Where are you when I needed you the most? God, I know you have given him to me, but I lost him. Where do I find him now? Yes, I know just what to do.

“Mom, I am going out for a walk. I will have dinner, so don’t wait for me.” I slam the door and step out into the silent street. Finally! Out from hell.

I am quite certain every family invites him to their homes daily, so I’m just going to wait until my parents invite him. After all, it’s their fault! They try to control my life. They don’t understand that I am a teen and that I am capable of doing things myself. They never, ever, let me take decisions myself. So, I’m not responsible if he leaves the house, my parents are. However, I liked his company a few years ago, so I’m going to search  for him.

I look out for him as I walked down the street that entertains young life.

I haven’t seen him for a long time now. Not in the nightclub or bar. Not in the basketball court or McD. Not here, neither here…  I have covered every place and I’m exhausted right now. I guess this is one of the few times I am allowed to give up. 

“Young boy. You seem to be looking for someone”.

I turned around to see an old man, probably in his late seventies.

“I’m not sure if you can find him for me but I guess you could help me out. I am looking for peace. Ever since I entered my teens, I am not able to find him at home. I remember the good times when he was with us. How happy my parents were. How happy I was. I’m not even able to describe him anymore, that’s how long it has been. I blame my parents for this. They are the ones who tell me off and I hate the fact that they are in control of me, and my dreams. I’m sorry; I don’t know how he looks like. It’s not of any use is it? Sigh…”

“My dear boy. I am glad you are making this mistake now because you will be able to lead a happier life. Let me take you somewhere and I will share my story as we walk. I grew up in an environment worse than yours. My father was an alcoholic. He used to come home drunk everyday and abuse my mother and me. Eventually, I managed to study well and get out of hell. All my life I blamed my father for pushing peace out of our house and I carried that blame and hatred with me. In my journey, I learned many lessons, one being where to find peace”.

The man slowed down as we reached our destination. I glanced up to see a spiral tower with a metal cross ( A place I instantly recognized).

“I asked everyone around me where to find him and finally I asked the right person, God. I read through his powerful words and I realized that- what we are all probably looking for is close to us. It is in our hearts, lad. You don’t have to search for him anywhere else. He lives within us and comes from us. Peace is beautiful. It is happy, truthful, hopeful, full of love, mercy and forgiveness, and it is bound with Jesus’s blood, the great sacrifice. I would have been in peace if I forgave my father and moved on. But no, I decided to carry the burden with me, and that is where I lost him. My son, don’t wait for someone else to give you peace. Only God can, and he wants us to spread it. Go home with peace in you. Make peace with your parents. Be grateful you have parents who care for you and know that God appoints them as your caretakers. Good-bye. God be with you and bless you”.

I finally opened my eye after the old man (whose name I don’t even know) introduced me to peace, who is ready to live with me if I invite him. God sends Angels to tell messages; I guess he was one of them. I hurried home, because, this time I knew he was with me.

Be at peace!





In His Time

My dear faithful readers,

It has been half a year since I have posted something fresh, but hopefully all of you got an opportunity to experience what it feels like to await, be it for my posts or for something you have prayed for a prolonged period. 

You have prodigious ambitions of who you want to be in life. You have plans for the bustling week ahead and set schedules for your demanding tomorrow. Now, before you pile up more to your already piled up to- do list, pause, rewind and recall… When was the last time  your lips spoke the powerful words ‘Thy will be done’?

In his time, in his time

He makes all things beautiful in his time…

God! This sounds so sweet when you sing it in church; unfortunately, it’s challenging to apply this to your everyday life. In some way or the other you want to do things by your self. You want your plans to work out at the right time. The time you decided not God.

Life can only be understood backwards; but it must be lived forwards

October, 2015

“Sir, October is Breast cancer awareness month. We, the year eleven’s, would like to spread awareness and raise money for the cancer patients by organizing a sponsor walk. “

“Well, that’s great”! However, you need to hand out consent sheets to parents, plan the route, and get in contact with the security, the medical…”

After a few weeks… 

“I’m sorry Cinthia, I discussed this with our heads and we don’t quite think it will work out this academic year. I’m sorry, I did try my best.” 

I don’t understand. I’m doing such a great thing for the patients who can’t afford treatments and medications. Why Lord, why is this not working out? Just like a Police officer questioning the witnesses after a crime, I started questioning my witness, My Lord.

October, 2016

“Sir, October is Breast cancer awareness month. We, the sixth former’s, would like to spread awareness and raise money for the cancer patients by organizing a Non-uniform day and a Bake sale.”

“That is a wonderful idea. However, you need to…”

After a few weeks…

“Well done Cinthia! We teachers are so proud of you and your classmates. You have managed to raise an extensive amount for the cancer patients” 

I don’t understand. How did it work out this time but not last year? The question changed from why to how? (By now, dear readers, I hope you are aware of how much I love questioning!)

Then slowly like a snail it glided into my overwhelmed head. I was in the last year of my IGCSE (exams), a crucial time for most teenagers in school. I had to concentrate on nine subjects and wouldn’t have time for ‘extra stuff’ (especially me being a non all-rounder and very poor at multitasking). God knew beforehand that I was incapable of running a campaign especially with exams a stone’s throw away. He knew that but I failed to view it from a student’s perspective. However, this year, I had only two subjects to take care of and had abundant free time to prepare for the Bake sale.

I am writing this post to tell you, my wonderful readers- do not be disheartened when something doesn’t work out the way you planned it. You might believe that it is the most suitable time, but no, God has better plans for you, and, because he knows your future, he knows the obstacles coming towards you. What he wants from you is to be strong with hope, faith, patience and blind trust in him. He knows what he is doing, we don’t!

Dear God, please help my readers understand this lesson. When they encounter situations like this, help them to know that it is always for the best. Help them to submit their plans into thy hands. Equip them with strength, faith, trust, patience and hope. Amen.

Here ends my Testimony. May God bless you all with a happy and prosperous New Year.


Amidst it all

White bed sheets, metal blades and humans with white coats; i feared them all. I may appear calm on the outside but inside me lay hidden a mechanism- an exhausted running heart, all ready to clench the oxygen molecules. From the corner of my eye, I can just about see beautiful blue attires, gloves and shiny metal tools, all set for the agonizing nightmare. Clink-clink, the blades cried, foreshadowing my screams and intensifying my current premonitions. Pushing to the limits, my body tried it’s best to camouflage with the pale sheets (another effort in vain).

Romans 8:18 says, I consider that what we suffer at this present time cannot be compared at all with the glory that is going to be revealed to us. That is exactly it. The surgery was painful. Very painful. Nevertheless, my best friend Jesus was there, wiping my tears before it even poured out of my eyes. The half an hour of pain only felt like a few minutes. This too shall pass by, I said, pacifying myself. From this experience I learned many significant lessons, one being, that Jesus strengthens you and will be beside you no matter what angle the situation turns out to be.

Today I’m healed; thanks to all the facilities and blessings God has given me. The pain and suffering was only for a while, but the comfort for a lifetime. A message I would like to share with my dear readers is that don’t be disheartened. If you are having problems, big or small, Jesus will be there, holding your hand tightly and never letting you go. He will wipe away your tears, prepare and equip you for what is to come. After you have overcome your hardships with the strength God gave you, you will look back, smile and thank God.

I am smiling right now as I am writing this because through this situation I got rid of my many fears. I am now able to look back to all my problems and thank God, it is a blessing. Yes, a blessing because unknowingly, or knowingly, you become stronger. I became stronger and now this is one of the many rocks I stepped over along with Jesus in this journey, better known as life.

A big thank you to God, my parents and last but not the least, the medical staff behind the scene, who all helped to make this painful experience, a wonderful memory to treasure.

As a mother comforts her child, so will I comfort you, he said holding me tightly. Amidst it all, he was there. 


He was, he is, and will always be with you


Dear God,

If I ever lose hope, please remind me that your plans are better than my dreams. 

How many times have you said to yourself “I’m quite useless” ? How many times have you said to God “I can’t do this” ? Have you ever counted the number of times you lost faith? Lost hope? Did you ever finding yourself on the ground, unable to rise?

I have. I have felt useless. I have lost courage, hope, all my faith, and I have fallen down several times, not ready to get up. Nevertheless, my Heavenly Father has restored everything I considered lost; he gave me a reason to feel worthy and a reason to be on my feet once again. He taught me to close my eyes and believe everything happens for a reason. He told me if I ever asked him anything in His almighty name, he would give it to me. To this day, he hasn’t let me down and he will never. I believe in his unfailing love.

If ever anyone asks me, who can change a hopeless situation, I will point up to the heavens. If ever anyone asks me, who can do the impossible, I will point to the cross. If ever anyone asks me, who Jesus is, I will introduce you to my teacher, savior and best friend.

This video describes everything God has done for his people and everything he is ready to do for us, his children. It reminded me of the wonders he can do, if we wait for the right time, not losing hope or faith while waiting. Everything we see shall pass by, including our sorrows and hardships.

Note:- I do not own this video, I am only sharing something that touched me deeply.


True Christmas

White-Christmas-Tree-Wallpaper-02When I was a little girl, Christmas was all about decorating the green tree, waiting for Santa clause, opening up stockings and gorging up those heavenly Christmas cakes. I grew older and older experiencing the same old Christmas rituals (however this time a few more added to the agenda); wishing people, buying and receiving presents, licking candy canes and singing carols. In spite of all this, I still felt something missing.

25th December, 2015- I looked back to all those Christmas days; the parties, the dinners, wrapped up gifts, the beautifully lit up houses and the lively trees. It was and it is indeed a celebration. A celebration for what reason though? Does Christmas only signify Jesus’s birth? Or is there more to what I’ve been taught, seen and heard?

My day started at 8 am, when the news about my mom making pancakes reached my ears. I went downstairs, complaining to my mom about how this is a special day but I feel it’s just like any other day. We shared our opinions and agreed that it’s because every day is a celebration for us. We have clothes covering our bodies, piping hot food on the table, clean water to drink, a roof above our heads, a car and last but not the least money! We didn’t have to save up for anything (basically its luxury every day).

I looked down at a piece of paper with the word Christmas inked out. God, I thank you for this beautiful day and all these blessing I enjoy. I know there’s something more to all this. I want to start by asking a very simple question (a question I had no answer to after all these years of celebrating it), what is Christmas? I concentrated on the letters, and then the word ‘Christmas’, over and over and over again. Finally a bulb lit somewhere in my head (maybe not bright enough, but good enough for a start)

‘Christmas’- CHRIST Made A Sacrifice 

Yes, Yes, Yes! It is a day to remember God had to send his only son for us, so that we can be closer to our Heavenly Father. It is to remember and thank him for his unfailing and compassionate love for us. Let this day be a reminder of how we should love and care for people just like our Abba father. Let us give to the needy and lost souls; let it be a celebration for them. It is indeed a day of remembrance!

Merry Christmas!


No longer a home


Years ago, I lived in a place called home;

It was filled with laughter and full of life.

Love was the door to our happiness,

and trust was our dome.

I remember my brothers;

the ones who grew up with me,

The ones who made me complete.

 They knew nothing but to love and care.

Time passed by, altering everything on its way.

Now I live in white blocks, concealed from this world.

The walls are plain, with only a memory on the wall.

I have everything to live, yet I am empty;

I have money, still I am poor,

I have love but still I am despised,

I have freedom, yet I am a prisoner.

I have lights yet I live in darkness;

I have friends still I am lonely,

I am healthy yet I feel sick.

Sick of people fighting,

Sick from no love,

Sick of this blinding darkness.

I can always find a house, but never a home.


A letter to the heights above


I have dedicated posts to my father, grandfather and my little naughty sister. This time, I want to dedicate it to someone very special to me; someone who holds the highest place in my life, my lord and savior. This post is for you, O mighty one!

Villa no: – 305

Dukhan, Qatar

Wednesday, 23rd September 2015

Right hand of God


Dear righteous one,

Let me start by saying Lord, that my life on this earth would never be enough to thank you for the blessings you have showered upon me. No numbers, words or symbols could ever be used to show how much you care and love me. The best I could do to portray I care and love you is by obeying your words and putting them into actions.

Forgive me father for skipping church in the past few weeks. Please excuse me for discontinuing the good habits I had (like reading the bible before going to bed); I long to come back to all this. I did miss your powerful words and often found myself lost. Help me savior to spend more time with you as well as listen to you. I know the seeds of life have not planted their roots deep inside my heart. I yearn to nurture it and remove the weeds that stop the growth.

You have given me your life and I hope to humbly surrender mine to your hands. Please equip and prepare me for my journey.

With lots & lots of love,



Gracias Grandpa


A grand father is someone with silver in his hair and gold in his heart

Grand Father, a fatherly figure who is marvelous, super or noble. Or in my case all three (and more)! Where do I start from? I honestly don’t know!

You didn’t have to be by my side to tell me how much you love me. The little moments we shared together was all it took to show me you care. Thank you for telling me about this world grandpa and for bringing me closer to God. I know I don’t do my priorities properly yet you believe in me so much. Believe I would be one among the stars. Whatever you did you did it with boundless love for me and my sisters. You taught me everything from good habits all the way to business, economics, accounting… (The never-ending list)

I will miss the wonderful aroma of the tasty chicken, and making tea in your printed blue mug. I will miss watching movies with you and the talks we have before prayers; all these precious minutes I will miss, but above all, I will miss you dearly deep down. Have a safe flight back home.

Merci grand-père! Merci! Tu me manques!

Je t’embrasse



In the name of Love


A small spark of love is all it takes to ignite happiness

It’s easy to say “I love you”. It’s quite simple to spell ‘love’ and can be defined as an intense feeling of deep affection. This is one fine face of love. But, there is also one more side to this wonderful and powerful four letter word. This is the challenging part, where we reveal how much we truly love someone. It is not always about holding hands, the warm hugs or flying kisses! Well then, what is this all about? The answer to what love is, lies in Corinthians 13, in the bible.

Love is like pieces of a lamp; if it all comes together, it can shine light to see through the darkness of this world

Whatever we do, we should do it out of love for God. For he so loved the world that he gave his only son to die for our sins. We might be sinners to this second, but it’s never too late to change! Let’s change the way we behave to our enemies; let’s learn to be kind to them, help them in trouble and most importantly forgive them because love doesn’t keep a record of sins. When it comes to love, it’s always other’s before ourselves. Our friend may not have brought their lunch to school, share it with them; let’s sacrifice the pizza we waited for hours to eat! These are a few day-to-day things we can do to show people we care and love them. We may be criticized or laughed at because of the things we do. But brothers and sisters, I urge you to keep pushing forward because it’s all for the Holy one. A life living for God is a life worth living.

All of us have an ocean of love; it’s only the depth that differs. We all have a light inside us; it’s just that some of us try to cover it. From now on let’s try to shine brighter, let’s do what is right! The circle of love has to start somewhere, why not begin it ourselves?

Not all of us can do great things. But we can do small things with great love

May God bless you all!